Insomnia....the petals just wont rest tonight

Its the early hours of Valentines morning, and I cannot sleep! I put it down to the fact that I have not spoken to a single soul today.....call it anxiety or maybe just that I have so much conversation packed into my mind and my eyes will not close until I get it out!

I have come to appreciate a restful night sleep next to Paul (he somehow seems to have cured my affliction), but he has been ill from a nasty tummy bug since last night, and has been in bed all day. Apart from the occassional grunt that I have received in repsonse to my, "are you ok?" questions all day, thats about as communicative as its got!


Well, considering its Valentines day, I think its the right thing to say a few things I am grateful for, on this commercially successful day.....(I love Paul every day....dont need a special day to day buy him a card) ok ok, so I caved in to it all, and bought him a card and a picture frame which has his fav pic of us in it.....


1. I am grateful that I have someone who loves me as much as he does (when he is concious!) He loves me just as I am, it does not matter how much money I earn or what car I drive.....he is in this for love and not for financial gain!

2. He makes me content. Thats important because there is nothing worse than someone who makes you feel fear and anxiety.  Arguments are even great.....I have zero fear of a door being smashed in or a chair being kicked about.

3. Wow.... does he know how to kiss! Need I say more.....

4. He makes me feel better when I am home sick. I am far away from all my friends and family and he knows just what to say to make me feel happy...and content!  His family have welcomed me with open arms and treat me like a daughter already.

5. He cooks me dinner....and I dont mean some slapped up stuff from a tin. He really makes yummy food, and I just love when he makes me something special and he whips out his Jamie Oliver books and follows the receipe to a T!

6. I love how he lives with my untidyness...because here is the clanger....since I dont have anyone harping on it, I have never been more organized or neater....I even love doing his ironing!  Now that is domestic progress!

7. But most of all I just love him, and the way he makes me smile when I see a text from him on my phone or when he pops up in my pc world.....or just by walking into a room!

8. Lastly I love how he saved my life! I was a mess when he found me, and he soon made me see that I was worth more than the insecure women I had been turned into.  He has shown me another world (Ok country too!) but I will always be greatful for his never ending quest for information....it makes a HUGE difference to be with someone who is actually interested in my world and can have a conversation with me about anything..... He is the water to my soil, the nutrients to my roots!