Finding peace can only happen when you find all the pieces!

September 1981

"May you find serenity and tranquility in a world you may not always understand. May the pain you have known and the conflict you have experienced give you the strength to walk through life facing each new situation with courage and optimism. Always know that there are those whose love and understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone. May you discover enough goodness in others to believe in a world of peace. May a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life, and may you give these gifts as well as receive them. Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.

Teach love to those who hate, and let that love embrace you as you go out into the world. May the teachings of those you admire become part of you, so that you may call upon them. Remember, those whose lives you have touched and whose have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. It is the content of the encounter that is more important than the form.

May you not become too concerned with material matters, but instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. Find time each day to see beauty and love in the world around you. Realize that each person has limitless abilities, but each of us is different in our own way. What you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future. May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility. Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience. May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself, and not be dependent on another's judgment of your accomplishments. May you always feel loved." - Author unknown

June 2010

I continue to pick up the pieces of my life, but slowly, slowly, I am finding peace.  I have come a long way since events were set in motion in 1981, and although I still spend hours reconciling what could have been, I am grateful for my life to date, and I am blessed to have a wonderful family, precious friends and the most wonderful life partner who have all been paramount in my healing process and helping me find those missing pieces. 

I love you all so much, even tho we are not always together, you are never out of mind and heart!

Rebirth

Easter has always been a favourite time of the year for me.  I just love the spirit of it.  Sometimes its more fun for me than Christmas because its all the fun and excitement without the pressure!  Not to mention its the only day of the year you can indulge in so much rubbish and know its ok, because everyone is doing the same!

But this year Easter had a very different, yet fulfilling purpose for me.  Easter, although advertised as the time when the Easter bunny visits, has a much more profound message for Christians.  Now, not to go into too much here.....its basically all about rebirth.  And I took this to heart this year and felt it was time to put to rest, the bitter, angry and just misrable person I have been for quite some time now.  I was getting rather tired of it as I am sure you all have been!  It was also irony that Easter fell on my ex-wedding anniversary and I honestly thought it would be quite symbolic.  Plus, and this is the best part, its wondeful to have Easter in the Spring because it really does feel like a rebirth.

Peace.  Contentment.  Calm.  Its how I feel today.  I dont know why or how, but it seems to have worked, because I should be running around screaming and in a state.  But today, I am allowing the drama to just be.  I am too mellow to fight the cause or put up any resistance.  There is so much going on as always, and yet I just dont feel like getting into the usual flap.  Perhaps its the change of season or the fresh spring scent in the air.....perhaps its that I made the decision to just get on with it, but today I like how I feel and its optimistic,  and I know, no matter how big this mountain is, I will get there.....

Something interesting I stumbled across, it appears I have been driving with the brakes on for sometime.....

"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"
-- Mary Manin Morrissey